A shitty thing

[Night-butterfly]

Hello

For a while now I have experienced a tremendous irritating point. I feel like a shitty person with that point being one of my ''closest'' friends. I have been aware that I feel worse with her around, but it's not her... it is ME. The reason why I get so uptight and irritated around her is because she is what I want to be; beautiful, skinny, in control and she got great skin (skin being something I have had a problem with for ages).

I do care for her as a friend and I know that I am jealous because of her looks and smart little head. Still one thing just tipped the top of the iceberg. At a ''night with the girls'' she, according to a friend, might have kissed my brother who already got a girlfriend. (I am a good friend with this girlfriend) I'm afraid to ask either one of them .. really. I don't know what will happen if it is true?.. Since I'm already having problems with this girl.

God! I'm such a egoistic person, and I don't deny it! I can go a whole day talking to her and being chipper... but in the instance we talk about food or her being all ''I wish I had skinnier legs'' etc. Something just snaps... and I'm all cold and stiff. I'm a horrible friend.

[angelxo]

your not a bad friend, i feel the exact same around my best friend. i think havin perfection around you constantly is just a reason to get annoyed at yourself, thats how i feel

[FattyMcfatterton]

I have a slightly different problem. I have this friend who everyone loves. she's witty and really clever and people love talking to her. She's also insanely pretty (long blonde hair, blue eyes etc) and dresses really well. I feel as if i'm compeating against her but knowing i'll always lose. The only thing she isn't is skinny, she's curvy. It's the only thing i've been able to beat her in, the fact i'm skinnyer than her. Even though i would never bring it to attention, no one cares. because i'm the skinny but nervous, shy one and she's the curvy confident one. I feel like i can't win

As a result of this i don't get frustrated with her, i become intensely intimidated by her and become completely incapable of talking to her. It's like we're not even friends anymore.

[Jacklinger]

Don't compete with friends, they become enemies. There's always someone better than you at everything. If you decide to exlude those people from your life, you will be excluding a great portion of the human race. And what a sad shame that would be.

Stars are just tiny, cold, points of light, without those small planets that can appreciate their warmth.