when do you feel loved?

[lory]

i feel loved when i tell my "bestfriend" (biggest crush of my life) about when im having a bad day and he listens and cares or when he see's my cuts and gives me that look.
the "i wish i could save you" look.
the way hes always trying to make me feel better and i even feel loved when hes gone in a mood with me for not eating or cutting or whatever.
everything he does makes me feel loved.
ive known him for almost 5 years now, the first time i met him i had a crush on him hahaha, but cmon..i was 10 ;)
and then we lost contact for pretty much 2 and a half years..apart from seeing each other around high school. but hes a bit older than me sooo..not much seeing.
then we connected again almost 2 years ago and ive been completely in love since.
i swear hes the one..but i guess im too young to tell.
hes 2/3 years older than me so our lives are often different.
hes going to university this summer. i hope he doesnt move away ;( he hasnt decided which cities uni to go to yet.
anyway, its weird because i still look back in my diary to 5 years ago and theres his name entry after entry.
its so weird..it feels like fate.
its a shame that im far too ashamed of how i look to make anything happen between us..
because i know he loves me too.

[SkinKnee28]

when without saying a word he just knows whats going on in my mind...

[prettyfat]

never... :/

[Lady Persephone]

i dunno . . . i guess when i'm admired, but somehow i know that can't last or be real . . . i guess when I can tell someone anything and they'll listen even if it's crazy, like there's this one good friend of mine who I've known a long time, and we used to have a crush on each other, but we had a really big fight and he went for some other girl and what ever. Then, we started being good friends again, but it never went anywhere after that because we're oceans apart and I guess we both have our issues. Well, once in awhile I see him online and it's like he's always the same, he never changes, he like always has something to say that will pick me up. I know he has no reason to say anything to me at all, but the fact that he does really makes me feel loved, and not in a sexual way, of course, i'm married and all, but in a much deeper way. I think I hurt his trust recently. I confided a bit too much in him and told him something really dark about myself. He didn't want to talk to me later. He didn't say he was mad, but I still felt like maybe he was.

Sorry, i'm ranting on here . . . off topic.

[louie]

Well, let me think. Never.
Kind of sad when you think about it. I'm not okay with myself so I dont feel loved or liked or admired ever. Just cant.

Maybe someday I hope.