I dont want to be here anymore

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I have always dealt with situations by starving myself, or eating very very little. I tend to live on tea and coffee. Recently my boyfriend found out that his ex-girlfriend before me had had his child, so he called off the relationship so he could have time to think about what to do and what it is he wanted. Since then we agreed to meet for coffee... in the time we have spent apart I have starved myself and lost over 2 stone in approx 6 weeks. Earlier this week I contacted him and said that I could sit and wait anymore, and that I will always love him etc etc. he responded with 'whats up hun, I am just busy at work at the moment.'

Yesterday I was diagnosed with Bulima, and to top it all of I woke up this morning with a text from him saying that he had met someone else and is really happy, and thinks its time I concentrated on making myself happy.

It has took him six weeks for him to be honest with me! I am so confused and hurt, he says he cares about me, but if that was the case why couldnt he just be honest with me!

I feel so lost, he was the only support I got - I feel as if I have lost my best friend!

So now I am back to starving myself, I have spent 5 hours walking around aimlessly in the rain today, to burn the calories and try and loose weight.

I need to loose about 2 stone max, anyone have any crash diets and fast ways....

[anonymous]

Okay i know exactly what your going through, horrible isnt it? I experienced that with my ex - apart from the pregnacy thing, Must have felt like your whole world had just colapsed. I know how hard it is, but trust me, i know you may feel as if you want or wish you could get back together, but things just never really work out the second time around, and you will realise this one day. This gets easier it just takes time, He is the easy part in all this, he really is, what you need to concentrate on is your bulimia and you starving yourself. If you want to lose weight then being sick isnt the answer trust me, you can even put on weight! It makes you swollen and its so bad for you.
Do lot's of excerise and eat healthier smaller portions but all throughout the day so you dont get hungry, it does work. I just dont want to encourage you in the wrong ways, take it from someone who is there and has been through it. Your body deserves better. You will feel and look much better too. Good luck, and i hope that everything has either sorted itself out or will soon sort itself out. Xx