Dakota
03-25-2010, 03:25 PM
I just feel like my life is really messed up. It's like my life is not even normal, it's like all the controversies of the world is the creation of me, like I am the embodiment of the most imperfect person. Like there is no one even like me, since I live every life that mankind could think of as a bad life.
I am lesbian, convicted of 2 crimes (vehicle related), eating disorder, autistic (mentally disable lol), Asian and Hispanic but look white, a poor person in a rich city but a rich person in a poor city, grew up in the most dangerous city and now lived in the safest place, obese but turning thin, a virgin (this is big since I am probably the most dirtiest virgin ever; like I think of sex 24/7). Had all A's, then lost control of my grades last year because I was bored of school, and now I have all A's. Never had a real father either.
It's like I lived hundreds of lives, since I seen it all! It's like I belong no where, yet I am reflection of today's society. It's like if you're different then I can relate to you somehow.
So I just feel like a complete messed. Yet I feel stable.
Can anyone relate to this feeling?
I am lesbian, convicted of 2 crimes (vehicle related), eating disorder, autistic (mentally disable lol), Asian and Hispanic but look white, a poor person in a rich city but a rich person in a poor city, grew up in the most dangerous city and now lived in the safest place, obese but turning thin, a virgin (this is big since I am probably the most dirtiest virgin ever; like I think of sex 24/7). Had all A's, then lost control of my grades last year because I was bored of school, and now I have all A's. Never had a real father either.
It's like I lived hundreds of lives, since I seen it all! It's like I belong no where, yet I am reflection of today's society. It's like if you're different then I can relate to you somehow.
So I just feel like a complete messed. Yet I feel stable.
Can anyone relate to this feeling?