Bulimic Bodybuilder

[Kitchen]

Is there anyone else on here who is a Bulimic Bodybuilder?
your diet is Very clean and very strict, high protein/moderate carb/healthy fats, Hit the gym 5 days a week, get your 8 hours of rest every night

but you have those episodes..
you crack and eat every piece of junk food.. uncontrollably until your stomach is so full another bite will trigger a purge?

Welcome to my life. I need some help.
I have a great body and bodyfat under 10%
but im.. bulimic

Im not afraid of food at all I just have this system of hardcore dieting and training followed by b/p that can last up to 3 days in a row until i see myself retaining water and my body trying to compensate for the damage im doing.

Ill binge heavy, icecream, oreos, cakes, frostings m&m's, anything sweet and salty then grab a cup, go to the bathroom and step in the shower.
every purge is the same. shower running i fill up the cup with the shower head and start chugging water, after 10 big gulps i use my fingeres and trigger my gag to puke.
If it starts to get difficult, i just chug more water and purge again, until m stomach is literally empty. As i watch the food that just binged on circle and flow down the drain i am disgusted. the food that i just couldent stop uncontrollably eating, i never want to see again.
i clean the shower, dry off and brush my teeth, red eyed and swollen. go to my room and take a multi vitamin, digestive enzymes, and potassium pills to conpensate for the stress that i just put my body thru and any dehydration that may follow, almost like a hard workout. usually 30 mins later Ill make my normal chicken breast with rice and veggies like nothing ever happened.

CAN ANYONE RELATE?
AM I ALONE?

i need some help, this cannot keep happening. It seems like I've found the safest way to b/p, and if i dont see anything that triggers me to stop, Im scared that i will never....

help.

[Thru_The_Looking_Glass]

I can sort of relate. I started out as an exercise bulimic. Used to go to the gym 6 days a week for atleast 2 hours a day, started purging about a year after i started to over exercise. I always maintained a healthy balance, never let it control my life.

After MIA sent me to treatment and I started to get better, I started to figure model train. Never did any shows, but my trainer wanted me to. I always knew how to eat healthy, but it made me scared of "bad" foods.

I think when u kno how to take care of ur body and what is best to eat, the thought of the calories in pizza, ice cream, cakes, chocolate, etc being absorbed by the body uve worked so hard to achieve just scares the shit out of u. The cravings are overwhelming and u have to fulfill them, but theres no way ur going to let ur body go to hell.

Its a vicious cycle and u think u found the way to have the best of both worlds, but it catches up to u and it will do damage. Be careful, i suggest seeking treatment. I used to think i just wanted to eat whatever and stay skinny, but it goes a lot deeper than that, trust me.

[simple?_wrong]

Hi (i dont like calling people by their screen names so ill call you Fred if thats ok? :)) Fred, i can't relate in the way that i dont really exercise. but i know the exact feeling of the cravings, the disgust and being so tired of the routine it puts you in. bullimia is such a hard thing to deal with because it starts with.. hmm i really want to eat this chocolate bar and this and this, so hell why not, then you do and feel really bad n its just a way out that one time. then you do it again and again..

i would advise you to get help too by going sraight to your doctor to see a specialist. i went to the doctor a while back and got reffered to a counsilor, she's nice and everything but she doesnt really help so i got reffered to a specialist which i hope will help. i'll let you know if it does i should be going soon :). if your not ready to get over it and need to talk, theres so many friendly people on here that will help, including me! GOOD LUCK FRED :) xxx

[whatthehellpeople]

Is there anyone else on here who is a Bulimic Bodybuilder?
your diet is Very clean and very strict, high protein/moderate carb/healthy fats, Hit the gym 5 days a week, get your 8 hours of rest every night

but you have those episodes..
you crack and eat every piece of junk food.. uncontrollably until your stomach is so full another bite will trigger a purge?

Welcome to my life. I need some help.
I have a great body and bodyfat under 10%
but im.. bulimic

Im not afraid of food at all I just have this system of hardcore dieting and training followed by b/p that can last up to 3 days in a row until i see myself retaining water and my body trying to compensate for the damage im doing.

Ill binge heavy, icecream, oreos, cakes, frostings m&m's, anything sweet and salty then grab a cup, go to the bathroom and step in the shower.
every purge is the same. shower running i fill up the cup with the shower head and start chugging water, after 10 big gulps i use my fingeres and trigger my gag to puke.
If it starts to get difficult, i just chug more water and purge again, until m stomach is literally empty. As i watch the food that just binged on circle and flow down the drain i am disgusted. the food that i just couldent stop uncontrollably eating, i never want to see again.
i clean the shower, dry off and brush my teeth, red eyed and swollen. go to my room and take a multi vitamin, digestive enzymes, and potassium pills to conpensate for the stress that i just put my body thru and any dehydration that may follow, almost like a hard workout. usually 30 mins later Ill make my normal chicken breast with rice and veggies like nothing ever happened.

CAN ANYONE RELATE?
AM I ALONE?

i need some help, this cannot keep happening. It seems like I've found the safest way to b/p, and if i dont see anything that triggers me to stop, Im scared that i will never....

help.

I am also a bodybuilder. I am on the anabolic diet right now, which means I cannot eat carbs on weekdays. At first I was quite bad with my purging. I would slip up, eat some pizza or summat and just keep at it until I felt disgusting and purged. I'm doing much better now though. The secret, my friend, is cheat days. You need a fucking cheat day EVERY WEEK, eat whatever you want. DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES ALLOW YOURSELF TO THROW UP ANYTHING YOU EAT ON THE CHEAT DAY, keeping the icky food down will make you feel repulsive and bloated, but satisfied at the same time. Junk food will lose it's appeal once you recognize it as a part of your diet, albeit a minor one.

[sadbuttrue]

I would say I am a bodybuilder to a certain extent. I like to have my body toned. I take extreme martial arts and workout everyday. When I eat properly I eat like a body builder with proper protein/carb/fat ratios. When I binge I purge. I have had an eating disorder since I was 12. That is 30 years ago. Don't know if I fit into the category of what you are looking for but if I am let me know.

Rebeckah

[Triptoto]

I am also in to BB and eat right most of the time, but then B/P for several days in row. I found this by Ori Hofmeckler, the Warrior Diet guy... may be of interest to you too:

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It seems to make sense... he talks about some of the reasons for bingeing at night. I have definite emotional reasons for my bingeing too, that I'm going to try and deal with with some kind of behaviour mod. Lonliness and depression... I really don't feel better for having stuffed myself... it's merely a brief distraction! As is my obsession with the small amount of flab around my middle!

[Sanne]

That is exactly how my life is going on..
I do BB, ride my horse, run, biking and then I just have to go on eating all junkfood and crap all day, and I am purge afterwards...
It's killing me.. It really does....:(