a bit of a vent (sorry guys)

[gaincontrol]

I can't do this anymore, I hate this.

Its hard isnt it ? when you see a freidnship falling apart around you yet you have no control over it and have no way to stop it. When you love someone so much every thing about them starts to get to you , when you place someone that high on a pedastool that suddenly you start to notice wee silly things that never mattered before but now they cause week long arguments. What do you do when someone who used to be the reason you lived , the reason you got up in the morning , turns against you and in a way becomes so self absorbed and selfish that they stop caring about you and only care about themself. What do you do when you’ve been lied to so many times and always forgive , when each time it happens you vow it will never happen again and yet you let it , because it causes more hassel to put up the fight than it does to forgive and try and forget. What happens when your top of someones prority list and now all of a sudden your dropped , right down , they don’t want anything to do with you anymore... what happens when its all of this that triggers your ED and you can't stand it anymore but you can't see a way out.

its not a certain thing or certain situations that triggers this , its certain people
I can't get away from these people so will this ever stop ?

anorexic with bulimic tendancies ( i tend not to binge though)
does anyone else have a person not a thing that triggers there ED ?

im just about to go to college and i dont want to take this silly thing with me

[Jacklinger]

sorry for you loss of friendship

all you can do is be nice to them and don't expect anything in return. Don't seek them out and offer kindness, just be kind when you happen to run into them, and leave them be. Tell them how you really feel, once. If they don't care, don't bother them anymore. We can't control others, and we should not want to any more than we would want to be controled.

I can't think of a person that caused me to binge. I really miss my ex girlfriend though even though she was terrible to me.

[Alice Hunger]

Well, for me it was a combination of things that made me like a loded gun, but what pulled the trigger was by best friend. So I guess you could say that she was the reason I got an ED. We were always together and always told each other everything, until she fell in love. Their relationship didn't last, and she changed. At that time another "friend" saw the opportuity to try and steal her away. Because I was so totally out of control of the situation I suddenly started taking control of my eating. I never got this ED simply because I wanted to lose weight and "be pretty". So yeah, it was a person that triggered me.
But my story has a halfway happy ending. My bff and me are best friends again. No back stabbing and lies. And I'm confident it will last. Now I just need to get rid of this disorder and I'll have real control over my life. But in this sick way I don't want to get rid of it...

[gaincontrol]

I just can't stand it anymore. Everything is soo selfish, she can see what her actions are doing to me and she dosn't change , yet acts all caring and " ohh i want you to get better" when she knows fine well that she is the trigger for all of this. Im trying not to care, trying just to be civil and expect nothing in return but its hurts too much. I know im never going to get better if i stay in this shitty friendship , but do i even want to get better ? tbh i don't even know myself.