Goodbye fat me

[coffeerexic]

so I need somewhere to gripe at myself
and yall should too

My scales are retarded getting new ones tomorrow
I might weigh less than I think which is 154
and totally not acceptable
stupid binges
sometimes I wish I had the balls to purge
but I'm afraid it would be to easy
the last thing is a new addiction

Going to stock up on that 100 cal progresso soup and buckle down
one can a day maybe a piece of fruit for lunch
absolutely no sugars or fizzy drinks
no alcohol til I hit 130

I keep thinking about that new 55 cal budweiser
probably tastes like shit

Anyways I was saying...
Setting my cal limit at 200 a day
With at least 2 miles a day on the ol treadmill everyday
I should hit 130 around April 4th
my ugw was 120-5
but I just wonder how I'm gonna look
I wanna blow peoples minds man

I wanna be comfortable having sex with the lights on
or at all
right now I'm so sick of my body that I haven't had sex with my bf in almost three months

This ends tonight

[stargAzerkitty]

best of luck with your plan,
you can do whatever you set your mind to.
stay strong

[coffeerexic]

well no new scales tried like ten different ones and they said something different
lame.

Got the 100 cal soup
and plenty of fresh fruit

So far I've had a pear my daily fiber tablets
my hoodia green tea pills and half a lipodrene
oh and if course constant coffee
So I'm thinking about trying to make myself sick at my stomach
I need to start fasting at least two days a week

My bf keeps saying shit about how hot skinny blonde girls are
and its making me wanna die
however its making me not eat
so whatever

I wonder if these pills are even making a difference
or just destroying my liver
don't tell me I don't wanna know LOL
gotta die someday right

Ok treadmill time and a daily weigh in

[InMotion]

My bf keeps saying shit about how hot skinny blonde girls are
and its making me wanna die
however its making me not eat
so whatever


Babe, I think you need to kick your boyfriend's nasty ass to the curb! >=( No one has a right to say stuff like that to you! You are definitely above him. :)
<3 Love to you <3

[coffeerexic]

thanks inmotion.
he apologized.
Its kinds wierd our relationship, like best buds ya know
we pick on each other a lot LOL


So last night I was at 367 cal
and the night eating started
fucking like zombie eating
Snack cakes were my brains
pretty sure I had at least 3000 cal yesterday
which means that today I'm upping the lipodrene.
I've only been taking half of one.
and double the treadmill.
I really wish I had some seroqel(sp?) to keep me asleep