mia - taking over..

[millie</3]

i was mia 2 years ago. ofr a long time i stopped but recently i relapsed. the first time i was mia it wasn't bad, i never really binged and i still don't, but i would throw up after large meals. for the last 2 or 3 months however it's gotten out of control. i still don't binge but i purge after every decent sized meal i eat, so i've been puking twice a day for over 2 months now and it's killing me. my mom overheard me one night and it didn't make me stop, it just made me more creative when it comes to figuring out ways to throw up.

this is disgusting, i'm losing weight from working out but regardless, i cannot seem to make myself stop throwing up. puke doesn't disgust me anymore. my throat hurts all the time. and last night i got very drunk and i ate the first fast food meal i've had in months and i wasn't able to throw it up and today i feel like shit, not from the alcohol, but for not being able to puke up the meal i ate.

i don't know what to do, so i guess i'm just asking for support, or advice, or anything to help. thanks everyone.

[FishFace]

Hi millie</3

I really hope you can overcome this. I've been mia a while and am trying to stop, but never seem able to.

There have been a couple times I couldn't throw up what I ate, for some reason. It made me freak out. I smashed things and felt throwing myself off a bridge. It can be an awful feeling.

I hope you're doing ok. Sorry I don't really have advice, but if you need support you can post here or feel free to PM me.

[simple?_wrong]

hey millie, i know just how you feel. like all of us do i guess. i dont have advice but i have support, im going through the same thing. i was/still am bulemic and have been for about 2 years. id do it all the time n the guilt i felt if i didnt was unbearable, im trying to stop now but its really hard. just this second i ate a large chocolate bar and feel guilty and the only thing stopping myself is me. i used to eat mcdonalds n go straight home and throw up. you just have to think to yourself that you can do it and if you can talk to someone close to you about it. getting it off your chest kind of helps even if they dont understand. if you need a shoulder? x