i've started cutting regularly...again...

[alexa]

I used to just cut when I reallly needed too. Now it's like I have this routine every night I cut, then go to bed. Everythings just been so messed up lately...I have this "unofficial" friend with benefits, he's just being a jerk, and I think I might actually like him. My family is being obnoxious, and I don't even wanna live here anymore. My friends just seem to always be on my nerves. School is just school, I can even seem to be able to handle school anymore. People in general are just pissing me offf! I feel extremely fucked up. I'm still waiting for the therapy place to call with an appointment and I truthfully don't think I'll survive until then...I want tequiiiila.

[Jacklinger]

I'm sorry things are hard for you. Don't let your anger drive a wedge between you and everyone else. Talk things over with people, if you can. You might be surprised at how much they're willing to try to understand.

Don't let them go. Or else you'll be all alone. And that probably wouldn't help you feel any better would it?

People used to piss me off too. I harbored a lot of anger for a very long time. I was suspicious and mistrusting of people in general. Now I'm alone. I have no friends and no girlfriend. I'd give anything to be part of a family again, or have my own family. Don't push people away too much, eventually they really will start leaving you alone, all the time. And then you'll just want to cut even more.