SI to deal with binge?

[iliketurtles]

I've never purged, I've tried, never gotten into the habit of it. But I tend to binge when I'm feeling sick and tired of myself and the world. Food and restricting is so tied up with how I feel about myself. If I get tired of restricting and measuring, I tend to binge. And then I tend to self harm, and really badly. It's one of the few situations where I feel cutting really genuinely is the best thing I can do to feel better, binging is dirty and cutting is clean. Nice clean lines, deep deep ones, to where you can feel the blade against the bone, it feels so...cleansing, purifying.

I've been restricting for about a month now and based on past experience I can tell a major binge will probably happen soon. If anyone has ever used cutting as a coping mechanism for binging how did you get past it? I like cutting generally, I really do, but I don't like doing it in a situation where I feel like I'm out of my own control (ie a binge). Any words of wisdom? I don't want to look at cuts and be reminded of a binge, and I don't want cuts so deep I need medical attention

[LadyAmalthea]

I DO THIS

I feel super clean and purified like all the blood that comes out is all the badness in me and all the binging I've just done...

Kind of weird because it's so messy but blood makes me feel clean.

[FatKat]

I binge, (sometimes) purge, and cut, so I'm almost on the same boat. I've just been through a pretty tough binge-fest that lasted a week. It wasn't non-stop eating, but eating whatever I craved. To avoid a huge mess when I feel a binging period coming on I stock up on insanely healthy alternatives (carrots, apples, light cheese, ect). I also smoke pot which kills my hunger, but I highly advise against that.
If you're an artistic person try having a sketch pad around, I sometimes doodle odd and dark things when I'm feeling odd and dark, and it can really help with the urges to hurt.

[pitypeace]

i use to do that,I nearly died with over 20 OD's + CUTS drinking bleach.. ect... Id say plz read my recent thread on how I got over it.-bulimia.