Borderline Personality Disorder

[Lilliah]

Does anybody have, or know anybody, with this? Official diagnosis or anything? I've been wondering for quite some time. The only problem is that it seems to be a "catch-all" label to give to somebody when you're not quite sure what's wrong with them.

I've been evaluated, tested if you like, for various mental conditions over the years, but they've all been depressive disorders rather than a personality disorder, manic depression being the most heavily suspected (but I know I'm not bipolar)... sorry. I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't control my head. I can't fucking control anything at the moment... I'm rabbling a bit.

Really I'm just looking for first-hand information. I don't trust the internet, certainly not wikipedia, to tell me about a mental condition.

[Massive-Molly]

My psychatrist suspects I have it, but she says she doesn't like diagnosing personality disorders in people under the age of 20 because your personality is still developing. So I might have it, but it's not official.

She says it's because I think in extremes. There's no grey area, you know? And I self injure and have attempted suicide three times. And I'm "dangerously impulsive" (referring to my binging and purging and also, my need to cut my hair. which seems weird, but I act on impulses and chop off all my hair. Sometimes I get impulses to chop off my fingers. Once I tried. Not pretty.)

You could look up the DSM-IV diagnostic requirement for BPD. Don't use it to self diagnose, but it could help you figure out if you might have it.

[silver_elf]

Bipolar is often mistaken for BPD, because of some similar behaviour patterns (reckless behavior, mood swings, etc)

I thought I might have BPD at some point but now I'm fairly sure I'm actually bipolar because I have all the symptoms of hypomania right now (and for the last 2 weeks) and was depressed for a very long time.

In any case it's more what you do to address your symptoms than the label itself... but keep searching for the answer, best of luck!

[mychemicalromance]

Is that when you talk to yourself n stuff, cause i do that all the time without even noticing and argue with myself.
but as for bipolar, i only have mood swings and sometimes loss it and cant control my emotions, but im not bipolar

[brildafrings]

my therapist sais i have it.. its mainly that i just see extremes, so either this or that, without any exceptions. Like massive-molly said, you just have black or white, its either extremely good or totally horrible, you are extremely happy or totally depressive. but bipolar ist something different. I think to get the official diagnose of bordeline you have to comply with 5 of these requirements:
-Make frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
-Have a pattern of difficult relationships caused by alternating between extremes of intense admiration and hatred of others.
-Have an unstable self-image or be unsure of his or her own identity.
-Act impulsively in ways that are self-damaging, such as extravagant spending, frequent and unprotected sex with many partners, substance abuse, binge eating, or reckless driving.
-Have recurring suicidal thoughts, make repeated suicide attempts, or cause self-injury through mutilation, such as cutting or burning himself or herself.
-Have frequent emotional overreactions or intense mood swings, including feeling depressed, irritable, or anxious. These mood swings usually only last a few hours at a time. In rare cases, they may last a day or two.
-Have long-term feelings of emptiness.
-Have inappropriate, fierce anger or problems controlling anger. The person may often display temper tantrums or get into physical fights.
-Have temporary episodes of feeling suspicious of others without reason (paranoia) or losing a sense of reality.

but yes its also right that it just can be diagnosed when you are over 20, so not a teenager with developing personality anymore.

Itspretty hard actually, mostly that you overreact with so much.f.e when im totally happy and im looking forward to meeting someone the next day and he or she cant meet me becaus they got an appintment at the dentist or anything, but he or she sais we can meet later the next day, my whole world brakes: its nothing really heavy, but for me its like "everythings broken". and i often get eruptions like a 4 year old little girl. when im like this i begin to scream and cry and hit people around me, often the people i scream at dont even are the cause.

hope for you you dont have it, it cant be healed, you just might be able to live with it... :S

(excuse the bad english im from germany )

[silver_elf]

I'm pretty certain I have BPD, or bipolar, or both. I can relate to feeling completely out of control emotionally.