Fear of being forced to eat.

[Sparkling_Diamonds]

Hi. I'm really scared someone is going to come into my life and tell me my time to lose weight is over and now I have to eat to prove I'm a good person. As if people are judging me and saying I do not have the power to lose weight on my own so I need to take their advice which is basically to make me fat. This idea is really sabotaging my efforts to lose 10 lbs. I get so extremely stressed out that I can't prove I don't need food that I eat random things.

I'm also scared my life is going to turn miserable and I'll wind up in a bad place, become depressed, eat and get fat. Then I'll get kidnapped by people I really hate and they'll call me names. I'm scared I'm going to be swept into the society of stupid people. I didn't create stupidity and I don't believe it should exist, but I feel the stupid people hate me and are after me and want nothing more than to turn me into a stupid person so they can say they're smarter than me.

[onetwothree]

that is exactly what i happeneing to me. Ifu go on the EDNOS thread youll see my thread about my story but basically my mom weighed me infront of my frikin family and everyone started freaking out cuz i was underweight. Now they make sure I eat everything. OF course they dont know that i throw my lunch out most of the time but they make me eat so much dinner. They serve me like 2x the size of my sisters plate. I ask " Thats not fait. Why cant we eat the same amount?" And they r just like- cuz she isnt underweight. Even when i have only a little bit left they make me eat everything. And so even witht his dinner thing they dont seem to trust me. it sux
Now ive gained pounds and i feel like i am sooo fat. I looked in the mirror yesterday and i was like- omigosh! i cannot believe ive gained so much. its horrible.

[alwaysthinktwice22]

I'm so scared of that, too! I'm scared of losing control and of losing my option to eat or not eat. I'm also scared that if they weigh me before my next medical test on May 10th, that they're going to put me in the hospital again if I get to my weight I want to be by then (78) and give me a glucose drip to make me secretly gain some weight or an NG tube to feed me that way. Yuck. Doctors CAN be evil. Weight is evil.