Curious...

[truebeauty]

Im not here to preach, im just here to find out why.

I would like to know where the impulse comes from, why did you start? When? How do you stay motivated?

I myself am not friends with ana or mia, but I am just wondering what makes someone turn to such an extream option? Any feed back would be interesting to hear.

Look foreward to your feedback!

[FatAss]

I dont think anyone chooses an ed. you chose to diet and exercise and it just becomes more and more strict until one day your not in control anymore the ed is in control

[Lonely]

I feel like, at first, as said before, that it's all about control. But I don't have control over anything else, and I want to control my body.

[Cicely]

I agree with the two ladies above me. It started off as a simple "eat less" rule. I didn't always follow the rule, at the start. Then, gradually it became easier for me to shave off more and more daily caloric intake. It's now at the point where I have a small dinner, sometimes. I'm currently boosting my metabolism so that the waterfast I start soon will be more effective.

To tell you the truth, I feel like it progressed really fast. I don't really remember the "inbetween" stages, just eating normally and then, suddenly, not. The desire originally came from always feeling ugly and inadequate, fat and unloved. On a daily basis, wondering how awfully people must have thought of me ... and eventually those thoughts just escalated and became my motivation. Seeing myself shrink from 140 pounds to 115 was invigorating, and also fed into my motivation. Now that my weight has plateau'd, it's harder than ever. I used to set weight goals for myself and say that I'd be happy once I reached them, but I kept passing them and feeling worse and worse about my self-esteem as I went on.

So, here I am.

[anaXx]

like the two girls below, it starts off as a diet..for me its like every day i have a goal to work towards i.e a set no of calories and if i dont reach my goal i feel the day has been wasted.Again i kno its cliched an all that but its about being able to control just one thing and being good at just one thing i.e dieting and loosing weight..

[xsethxlover]

I started my Diet Because in the life of being gay
Your a lepper if your Fatt

So i started the Diet of my choice and now i barly eat anything a day sometime a small and i mean vary small salad with Banna peppers and Cal free hot sause
But thats about it

Mainly so i look good and i dont feel like an outcast

Xseth

[sarah-charlotte]

I've had issues with food for as long as i can remember but it wasn't until some truly horrific things happened to me that ana took control, i feel as though its always been there waiting for an opportunity. I've been anorexic for 9 years now and cant even contemplate giving it up or losing that control. i went into recovery for the better part of last year but it didn't stick, i love being anorexic, and i dont think there is anything wrong with that and im never giving up again.

[FatAss]

Are you happy Sarah? You say you love bein ana and it's good to hear someone sayin tht cuz everywhere i look says tht ana makes u unhappy depressed lonely and all the rest so i was just wonderin if ana makes everyone feel like tht, i know i am happier when im restricting and loosing

[sarah-charlotte]

yeah, in fact im only really truly happy when im having a skinny day/week. i love waking up in the morning, weighing myself and discovering ive lost 2lb overnight, it makes me smile and feel all warm inside. i know im going to have a good confident day when the numbers are going down. i do cancel meeting up with friends ect if im on a maintain day or worse a gain because im not happy and my confidence just plummets! that's why i do my best to make every day a thin day. i love the feeling i get when i see other people around me stuffing themselves silly and im sat there with some blueberries and a glass of water, its like a little victory in my head! lol

[sila]

I totally agree, nothing in this world makes me happier, than loosing weight and reaching my goal. When u feel like u got total control over ur body, weight and hunger, u feel like u can conquer the world. It makes me happy, strong, it gives me the best selvesteem, it makes life worth living.

[xsethxlover]

I agree wakeing up and have lost 2 lbs is basicly amazing :D

[wannabebetter]

i guess mine started in 2007, my partner was away on business and i was looking after his business back home. His landlady come over one day while he was away, went mad and threatened to end the lease - basically ruining the buisness, so i had to pacify her, phone round clients telling them everything was ok, at the time i was also decorating two rooms of a house, with a deadline as carpets were due to be fitted as well as doing my own job. I didnt have time to eat or sleep that week. At the end of it i had lost 7 pounds, it was great, the first time ever in my life something had gone in my favour. I decided then and there that i was going to control my weight from now on as i felt so much better being lighter, thats how its gone on, i have to keep it quiet as people now comment on me being too slim, but there is no way id go back to being fat again.

Dean

[LessThanPerfect]

im different, for me its not about control, alot of bad things have happened in my life, as in REALLY bad things... dad leaving, best friend commiting suicide, so much things that are evemn worse, but i dont feel its because of that. One day i remember, about 3 years ago, we were in the car and my mum said "lets go to macdonalds" and normally i wouldnt care about me weight i was already naturally 2 stone underweight, extremely thin but i ate soooo much chocolate n crisps etc, but something in my mind said "you dont need to eat that".. and here we are. I have about 1000 calories a day, exercise for 2 hours a day etc and i hate my weight and everything about me now, when before i never cared. I dont know what started it. I am 16, 5'6 and weigh around 118 pounds i think, is that good or bad?